I guess I should start by saying—yeah, I actually bought a Japanese sex doll once.
Not exactly something you lead with at parties (or even mention to most people), but here we are. The model was called Hitomi, and everything about her screamed “premium” in the product description. Platinum cured silicone, steel skeleton, all that. But honestly? There’s this weird disconnect between what they promise and how it feels when you’re unpacking a 66-pound box in your living room like some kind of secret agent for loneliness.
Unpacking: Not What You Expect
Shipping was supposed to be three weeks total—two weeks “processing,” then another week on the road. They weren’t lying about the discreet packaging part; plain brown box, no markings, nothing to tip off nosy neighbors or suspicious roommates. It almost felt more suspicious because of how unsuspicious it looked. Anyway.
Dragging 30 kilos up two flights of stairs is not sexy. By the time I got her out of the box and onto my bed (awkwardly), I was sweating through my shirt and wondering if anyone ever talks about this part online.
The Details They Don’t Tell You
The specs are all there: 5 feet 1 inch tall (which is apparently “life size,” though she still looked smaller somehow?), bust measurements that sound impressive on paper but feel...well, rubbery in real life. Her skin is platinum cured silicone—which does mean she’s softer than some other dolls out there—but also cold as a fish until you warm her up under blankets or with a hairdryer (yes, I tried that).
Joints? Steel skeleton with movable joints. In theory you can pose her however you want—except every time you move an arm or leg there’s this faint creaking sound that makes everything feel more mechanical than erotic.
Functionality vs Fantasy
Technically speaking: vaginal and anal holes go 6.7 inches deep, mouth goes just over five inches (not sure who needs those extra tenths). These numbers probably matter to someone who measures things before buying them—I didn’t check beforehand and now it just seems funny in retrospect.
Cleaning isn’t fun either—nobody tells you how much work goes into maintaining a life size silicone sex doll unless they’re trying to sell cleaning kits too.
Real Talk About Expectations
Maybe it’s just me being mentally checked out by the time she arrived after three weeks of waiting—but using Hitomi wasn’t really like any fantasy I’d had scrolling through endless product photos late at night. She looks pretty convincing from certain angles (especially if the lighting is low), but there’s always this uncanny valley thing going on when you catch her face straight-on.
I remember thinking: wow, there are people who collect these like art pieces or companions? It made me wonder if maybe I missed some essential part of the appeal—not judging anyone else, just surprised by my own reaction.
The One Thing That Actually Surprised Me
One detail stuck out though—the weight distribution is oddly realistic once you get used to lugging her around. At first it feels cumbersome; later it becomes almost normal? Carrying her from one room to another started feeling less weird after a few days—not quite human-like but definitely not inflatable-doll territory either.
Weirdly enough… sometimes having her sitting on the couch made my apartment feel less empty during long nights working from home.
Shipping & Aftermath
Free international shipping sounds great until you realize “international” means customs might open your package for inspection (they didn’t touch mine though). Processing times were accurate but felt eternal when checking tracking numbers compulsively each morning before coffee.
After everything arrived and settled into routine—or as close as one gets with a sex doll—I kept thinking back to why I ordered Hitomi in the first place. Curiosity? Boredom? Maybe both.
Would I Do It Again?
Not sure what answer people expect here—probably some dramatic revelation or regretful confession—but honestly it’s more muddled than that. Having a life size silicone sex doll like Hitomi isn’t really about replacing anything missing so much as scratching an itch for novelty… then quietly storing her away when real life calls again.
If you're new to shopping for life size silicone sex dolls, browsing various reviews can really help narrow down the right choice.
Anyway—that's probably enough oversharing for today.
